The Ache
It was normal, he said, and she believed him like she always did. His words always had that kind of effect on her. Sometimes she was aware that the things he made her do were wrong, and yet in the excitement to please him she would lose all her sense of judgment simply because she didn’t want him to desert her like all the other men before.
But that day she should have resisted him or, at least, found a polite way of saying, no. However, it was his eyes that melted her resolve and she soon followed him to the chamber to do what he wanted. Of course, if she had only known that they’d be caught in the act her response would have been vastly different… but how could she have known?
And that’s what bothered her as she lay on the ground and gazed into the eyes of the zealots wanting to stone her. They screamed, ‘adulteress’ and her heart broke as she saw him – and other men who had known her – standing alongside the zealots. She felt betrayed, violated, worthless and tossed into an empty space as if she was someone that didn’t matter.
“Only those who have never sinned may cast the first stone.”
The words broke through her fog of pain, and she noticed that Jesus had just stepped into her universe. He looked at her and she immediately felt that He understood her turmoil, her pain, her longings and the brokenness within that yearned for restoration. She felt that finally here was Someone she could trust with her life, and for whom she could fearlessly renounce her regrettable deeds that had scarred the very core of her life.
“Just go and sin no more,” Jesus told her, she obeyed and saw the difference.
But that day she should have resisted him or, at least, found a polite way of saying, no. However, it was his eyes that melted her resolve and she soon followed him to the chamber to do what he wanted. Of course, if she had only known that they’d be caught in the act her response would have been vastly different… but how could she have known?
And that’s what bothered her as she lay on the ground and gazed into the eyes of the zealots wanting to stone her. They screamed, ‘adulteress’ and her heart broke as she saw him – and other men who had known her – standing alongside the zealots. She felt betrayed, violated, worthless and tossed into an empty space as if she was someone that didn’t matter.
“Only those who have never sinned may cast the first stone.”
The words broke through her fog of pain, and she noticed that Jesus had just stepped into her universe. He looked at her and she immediately felt that He understood her turmoil, her pain, her longings and the brokenness within that yearned for restoration. She felt that finally here was Someone she could trust with her life, and for whom she could fearlessly renounce her regrettable deeds that had scarred the very core of her life.
“Just go and sin no more,” Jesus told her, she obeyed and saw the difference.
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